| Friday, October 21, 2005 |
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finally decided to blog again. partly due to the song in the last post. One year six months. haha. and partly due to tris! he is back. haha. yeah finally. i am really grateful for having him as a friend. even though the whole world deserts me or abandon me, i know you will still be there for me. isn't that what they always say? what matters is quality and not quantity. i seriously need more books to read. have been finishing off bel's load pretty quickly, faster than i want to. i have to read. i have to be busy- keep my mind busy, so i cant tink. pw sux. anyway tris is back. HAHA. i am so happy, finally someone whom i can talk to, who can really understand me, who will stand by me no matter what, who will never judge me. that's all i need. i dunno what i will do without him. he is the single best thing to have happened to my life haha. sounds exaggerated? well not at all actually. i am really thankful for such a friend, God, you answered my prayers. On a saturday night, what kept me going wasn't anyone else, but him. only i know. only i know. sigh, i may look stupid, sound stupid, but really i just want to be happy like everyone else. i dunno why i dunno why i called him up. really stupid. really stupid. well becky ended up with luke didn't he? that's my bet. my bet that if luke returns to becky, i will give him a call. what was i thinking? a story is still fiction after all. still being my naive self, as usual. sometimes i wonder why do i even bother trying to do this monotonous crap each day? well, no one will understand eh? except perhaps tris? i read "the child called it". really quite a sad story. made my heart cringe. sigh... why are children always the one to suffer for adults' mistakes? the world is such a horrible place. i wonder if God knew about this when he created the world. if he had known, will he still have created this hell? leaving for hongkong soon. sigh. i wish i can be there forever. ending off with a quote from the child called it: Childhood should be carefree, playing in the sun;not living a nightmare in the darkness of the soul. i hope so, i hope so. p.s: zhern is so right, people do come and go right? |
| peibei 6:38 AM |
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| peibei- eighteen basketball rjc 11th Jan 1988 boring stupid antisocial haha. loving--- all my friends, music, books, music, friends. |
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| somewhere along the way we lost our heads we dont need these happy endings i am waiting for the final moment you say the words that i cant say. |
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