| Monday, November 28, 2005 |
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firstly, i hope mel is feeling better. my first time sitting in an ambulance too. sigh... she wont be able to play for 6-8 weeks. sigh. i forgot to mention about the time i went to eat hotpot with mel, xy and wy. quite fun. haha. hmm. i ambored again cos i finished watching bleach. we won the match yesterday. actually my fear is quite hmm unnecessary. anyway. i dunno i just dun want to drag the team down. esp when i know i will. i know lack of confidence, but confidencce is sth that comes with experience. i am just scared la. i never ever played a team sport until recently. golf. well is a very individual sport. i am scared, esp when the coach got a bit loud yesterday. but man, the match was damn rough, i swear no14 is like 2.5 times mel's size, which is not good at all. i really hope she is alright and can take sat. speaking of which i haven started studying for it. this is bad. sigh. i wish my mum can be a little more mum-like sometimes. haha. it scares me quite often when she starts acting like i am her subordinate... bah. because i was so bored, i wrote sth for fun. haha. With my hand to my forehead, i sat alone watching the world spin by with the hustle and bustle of activities i so want to join but lack the strength to do so. Struggling to stand, plucking up my courage to face the world again to finally face the world without a mask But how do i do that? when i feel so empty inside? void of an attachment to any form All i want is to be happy, and there, i was denied the very pleasure of obtaining it this hopeless chase. i give up, but not before putting up a fight. a fight i guess is futile. |
| peibei 9:15 PM |
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