| Wednesday, November 16, 2005 |
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well. i wanted to write something really deep and profound yesterday. but i fell asleep. hmmm. but nevertheless after i wrote the last entry, i got reminded of this song. Broken Home- Papa roach Broken home, all alone Broken home, all alone I can't seem to fight these feelings I'm caught in the middle of this And my wounds are not healing I'm stuck in between my parents I wish I had someone to talk to Someone I could confide in I just want to know the truth I just want to know the truth Want to know the truth! Broken home All alone I know my mother loves me But does my father even care? If I'm sad or angry You were never ever there When I needed you I hope you regret what you did I think I know the truth Your father did the same to you Did the same to you! I'm crying day and night now What is wrong with me? I cannot fight now I feel like a weak link Crying day and night now What is wrong with me? I cannot fight now I feel like a weak link (Push it back inside) 4X A weak link Broken home, all alone It feels bad to be alone Crying by yourself living in a broken home How could I tell it? So all y'all could feel it Depression strikes hard just like my old earth would tell it To me, her son, she told me I'm the one Pain bottled up, 'bout to blow like a gun Stories that I tell Are nonfiction And you can't take it back cuz it's already done BROKEN HOME! BROKEN HOOOOME! Can't seem to fight these feelings Caught in the middle of this My wounds are not healing Stuck in between my parents BROKEN HOME! BROKEN HOOOOME! haha i guess it quite summarises what i wanted to say in my last entry. songs are such wonderful things, dun you tink so? sometimes you just need to listen to a song to realise there is someone out there who truly understands. but really, of course choice of songs is super impt. for let's say depression will not go well with yet another depressed song, it will simply make one feel more depressed. bah. but well. everyone does that. listening to a song that suits the mood. i am just crapping really. but just trying to make the point about how impt music is to my life. i was reading this book the other day. it kinda hit me pretty hard how other's problems always seem so minute as compared to your own. and i realised it all boils down to selfishness. i mean obviously your own problem will seem like a big problem to you, but to others it may just be a friend's prob or sth. you may be genuinely worried, and may even take the prob as your own, but still it wont seem as impt as ur own. humans are just selfish la. the book i read had some case studies about this really depressed teenager who tried to seek help, (from the wrong pple of course), but still attempted suicide. She tried everything, she asked for help, at first her friends seem pretty helpful, until they started showing signs of being irritated, asking her to just forget it and refusing to listen to her, what she had to say. what i am trying to highlight here is while obviously if ur friend has a prob and willing to hear your opinions, though the prob may not be as impt as your prob, do spare a min to listen and not just simply brush it off with a "forget it la" or " it will be ok", because to conjure up the courage to ask for help will mean the situation is more than okay. let me try to find the book i read and i will write it here soon. pretty good read. oh man i think i am becoming intellectual for once. sigh, but to end it all, i tink human are really selfish creatures? i'd rather be born a pig than have to go thru all of these. snake is having a comp. good luck. hmmm. i just saw this really cool website. ok it is abt love. i just "chanced" upon it. it said "people who seek true love are those who had truly loved someone and most probably been hurt before." but really as i was reading the article, i was thinking to myself, how many of these people can truly find them in the end? hardly any, i suppose. i am hungry at home but i am too lazy to go out. scroll down to see the fortune teller entry, he said i am lazy and it is in my blood. haha. i am hungry. bah!!!!!! |
| peibei 9:38 PM |
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