| Sunday, December 18, 2005 |
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i admit i am a closet romantic. who doesn't want someone who promises (and fulfills) to love you forever? though deep in my heart, i know how stupid and naive that sounds, but who doesn't want that? forever seems such a easy word to say, but it takes a lot more to really mean it. so all the on the surface toughness is all an act to hide a heart that is afraid to be hurt. but nevertheless, it got hurt. haha. well. sth about love, it is really blind. trust me on that. wad you see and wad you hear when you are in love is totally different to when you are not. even the skies look brighter, the sun shines for you. but being in love has its downsides too, it makes you take people for granted, unable to take changes, and becoming altogether another person-- most significant change of all, starting to neglect friends who are supposed to be always the MOST important. and i mean the MOST important. because they are the ones, ultimately, who will stand by you in the end. admit it, people, relationships at this age either end up in tears, or well. boredom into the years. not to be cynical, well some relationships do last, i will give you that benefit of doubt then. but friends should be the most treasured of all. made the mistake once. once bitten twice shy you say, absolutely true. But beyond all this cynism( is there such a word, my eng is really bad), there is still someone who wishes for that little romance, a romance that may last a lifetime or perhaps be able to steer through much much obstacles. now that is wad i call a consequence of watching too much tv. but i do believe deep inside every girl's heart, there awaits this small glimpse of hope of finally finding her prince charming. yeap i dun believe in fairytales, never do. but living in one and hoping to live in one are different matters. but when you realise that hope that dream will never come true? i dunno wad is worse, knowing that it will never come true or knowing that you are not living in one. you see those movies with the girl dying, the guy expressing their undying love, and you will definitely wish to be one of them. but reality is not acting. that can never happen. but still, you cant stop harbouring hopes. that is what is really wrong with us. love is a war. war with urself. war with ur beliefs. you hope to be someone living in a movie, but you know you cant ever be that someone, you try hard to be, and the bubble burst. but that glimmer of hope did not diminish yet. because everyone else says "you will find someone better." well. maybe that is true. but wont the same thing happen again and again? well, some relationships do work.BUT. some try too hard, some do not try at all. but in the end, i guess trying to keep it as exciting as ever will be the best bet. it is hard for two to live together, endless arguments will arise. and i do mean, endless. that is why marriage is a grave for most. The point i am trying to make is, we are not living in a movie. even if we are, there are sad endings to them too. dont be over blinded in love to ignore this fact. Forever almost never happens in real life. i dunno whether i am right or wrong about this. but opinions are shaped by experiences. and my experiences tell me so. maybe it will change in the future. but who will know how? maybe i am wrong. actually i hope i am. someone prove me wrong. |
| peibei 7:59 AM |
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