i have nothin to write here

2006-11-15T20:16:00.000-08:00

HELLO!!!!!!!!
exams have kinda ended!!!!!! (okay, chem mcq doesn't count, does it?)

errr they were okay. except for maybe econs and phy paper 3. was really upset abt paper 3 but econs wadever let's just say it has never been my strong sub. SHIT, i think i may miss studying. cos yesterday i did nth but to slack. CANT HELP BUT FEEL THAT LIFE IS MEANINGLESS NOW. oops. ok that was just to spite the bio pple. HAHA sorry, cant help it.

WELL. the point of this entry is not to spite anyone, but er saying that i am leaving. not closing down this blog but moving to livejournal. and it is friends only. have been using this blog for quite some time, it does have some sentimental value i guess. but yahh! this is goodbye!!!!

:)

2006-11-03T09:09:00.000-08:00

Life may be a rough road to walk on alone when everything seems wrong. But with friends it is never lonely, just walk on for when you think you are alone, look back and you will find me following right behind.

p.s: i am not a stalker. but it goes out to all of you. :)

2006-10-28T10:38:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KORYY LIM!!!
p.s this will def appear on techorati! :)
18!!!

GOOD LUCK FOR A LEVELS AND S PAPERS TOO!

2006-10-26T06:18:00.000-07:00

2006-10-26T05:58:00.000-07:00

halo people. i am moving soon. both physically and bloggly. er is there such a word wadeverrr. moving straight after a levels, to be exact freaking 18th. :) heee the day after. WOOHOO. do u know i have the combi that ends the earliest? HAHAHA. housewarmingg yup yup def. well, blog wise, i am most prob moving to lj. haven decided if i want to put it friends only. see how. actually i added s_**** :) so happy. ok fine with the help of kory. happy? :)

recently a spate of events had made me reconsidered the meaning of friends to me. hmm i mean i treat everyone i consider as a friend nicely, like no pretensions wadever shit. genuinely caring for their well beings. thinking people will treat you the way you treat them. what a naive way of thinkingg. as a friend, i can def say i dont think i have ever lied to you. yes obviously i lie. i lie to my parents. hee. what an irony. naive me used to think that friends are everythingg, more important than family. well. some important friends still lay close to my heart, but some. i think i have to reconsider what our relationship is really all about. sorry for the serious tone here. i have been thinkingg maybe friendship is not all that simple after all. perhaps not an easy "hey i care for you, look you are my friend, if you need anything, feel free to ask, if i can do it, i will", but there is more to it. betrayal really sucks. friends what are they? i am starting to get really confused over the idea of it all.

but on a brighter note, i know there are some people i can really count on. well, i guess i am becoming more matured? am i? but for the others, maybe for now i am going to sit aside and try not to get too closee to.

i am afraid of few things. one of them is betrayal by a friend.
i hope you know how much it means to me.

well, on the brightest note, i play bball today, with pple i love. MY JUNIORS AND JIAOLIAN. i think i will def miss this whacky bunch. haven run for a really long time. i was panting like crazy right after two balls. hmm it is so happy to see my juniors improving, esp clara. haha. the bball training sessions will def be one of the highlights of my rjc journey. hmm. ben cai who is a noob and turtle? hee. PLAN GRAB THE BOOK. activated now. :)
ok bye. perhaps a few more entries here and i will be off in search of greener pastures, and def more privacy. HEEE.

STUDY HARD PEOPLE.

2006-10-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

sigh this feeling sucks.
i don't even know why i am so affected.

someone enlighten me.
BAHHHHHHHHHHH

2006-10-19T13:14:00.000-07:00

i feel so horrible now.
the whirlwind of events.

as i was hoping and hoping perhaps there will be a miracle somehow, that perhaps since they took my grandfather away, since they took her away in sec sch, there is a chance they will leave her alone this time. i mean it is not often that people my age have to deal with this number of deaths. and i admire your courage yes i do while i can only go aroundd acting like the clown to try to cheer u up. i din know what to do. i am sorry this is all i can do.

be strong for her. BE strong.
i am really tired. really tired.

Though i din exactly know her very well, she has always been very kind to me. i guess that means i should treasure my grandmother more now.

while everyone claims, death is only temporary separation. but trust me, i've been thru that, at this point of time, esp this period, i will do anything to be able to converse with the person again.

God bless.

and last night, i said a prayer for you.

2006-10-17T15:30:00.000-07:00

shit i cant stop slacking, cant stop getting distracted.. arghhh!!
ultimately i just want to get my ass off this country. do sth myself
PLS PLS PLS LET ME DO IT!
PLEASE...

dont make me lose faith right now. esp not now.

i was thinkingg. i never thought of myself as smart. as in chor seng smart or bryon smart, or ser smart kind. but i guess in sec sch i can be considered okay. NOW, i think i just became stupider in a span of two years. ARGHHHH. how did that happen?'
not using the brain for two yearssssss??? ARGHHHH
ARGHHHH
i was telling chors, maybe the peibei you knew before is going to disappear soon into a bout of depression!
sigh a levels suckk!
15 more days.
and i have no guts right now at the moment to say "bring it on"
guess how prepared i am.

I WANNA GO UK.
this random outburst just made me feel a whole lot better. :)

2006-10-16T08:00:00.000-07:00

just read someone's blog. someone who is very important to me. i am sorry i neglected you these few days. yes i admit like everyone i thought u were mia because of a certain someone. sorry for this stupiddd thought. when i said dun bother me with anything except for studies, i din mean you. i was trying to get my pt across to some idiots. not you. esp not you. sigh, i am sorry for being so selfish or acting so selfish. you know i am always just a call awayy.

life is not always a bed of roses.

yes and i am currently having a serious confidence problem as well. maths paper 1 nov 04, i took freaking nearly 4 hrs to do. with the help of the solutions. that is how pathetic i am. take a levels? what a joke. why dun i try for june a levels seriously? uk u? bullshit la. arghhh!

but, anyway thanks daniel for the comforting words.

2006-10-15T22:11:00.000-07:00

-Farewell Assembly

another day of fish attack and er the school reports aren't mine, they are JON ANG's. pls either jon ang or bryon or xiaohui pls get psc, so that i will know a president scholar! haha and that photo with ben ng is evidence of who has double chin. see the two under his chin? haha. last day of being a proud rafflesian. a pioneer, thinker, leader. though i think i dun fit the criteria for any of that. Still, during the farewell assembly, when we were singing the school song, i kinda realised i developed feelings for the school. Even though i still dunno the school song, i am kinda proud of it, so i will post the lyrics some time sooonnn.

and thanks for the flowers.

to gerald: YOU SUCK! :)

2006-10-13T07:15:00.000-07:00

Create Your Own!

2006-10-12T03:40:00.000-07:00

i came across a weird blog yesterday. it was promoting throat slitting and all. filled with gory pictures that can resurface anything you ate just before. There were a few cases shown there, people who want to end their lives and all. i was reading through their life stories and tryign super hard to ignore the gory pictures filled with blood and God knows what. i was still telling kory, i dun understand why do people want to do such things. surely living itself is better than being dead. there is def sth positive in their lives that they overlooked and all. life can be bad, but it cant be bad to that extent till you seek death. ultimately if there is really sth so depressing in your life, you can always go talk to a close friend or sth. UNLESS you have no close friends, er maybe you can try talking to someone you know. SO i am opening up myself to talk to anyone who needs help. LIFE IS NOT THAT BAD. there are ups and downs in everyone's life. when you are at the down part, just think abt it, after the down part, it will be up again. on the contrary,i am never the optimistic one, but i still dun think life is all that bad.

On the way to changi, i was on the train and peeking over my shoulders at what this lady was writign beside me. she was listing down problems of all these kids whom i assume are in her bible study grp or sth. so many of them have probs even worse than those i read in the blog. "dads who get drunk easily and abuse mum, abused kid, abandoned kid..etc" these people are not seeking death, why are those people who are better off doing it? this issue just made me think abt what happened in rjc a few weeks ago. life is complexing isn't it?

no matter what, i still think commiting suicide is an act of cowardice.
whenever you entertain such thoughts, think about what you are leaving behind.

on a sidenote: CHEONG SI JIAN, YOU BETTER WAKE UP SOON! it is 651pm and answer your phoneee.

2006-10-10T14:39:00.000-07:00

wee morning hours - Changi Airport

studying in changi with jian gerald and stally. hee last picture is so classic of them. changi is fun at night. and yes my bio clock is seriously screwed. rushing into school at 11 is kinda er fun? :)

2006-10-10T13:41:00.000-07:00

Afternoon- school.

went to school for the last econs lesson, and some major photo whoring. it was pretty fun. and ben cai you are a "BOY" of few words not man. anywayy, i was super tired, so look at the eye bags forming. and i cant seem to be able to stop taking pictures with these sweethearts- zhi and zhu. :) hehe they know my secret as to why i am so happy the whole day. econs class, we had a goodies bag each, from ms wong. she is super sweet. and the whole class went off to crystal jade for lunch. and zhi nearly lost her wallet, explained the sad with money pic (but it doesn't look sad right?) haha. anway luckily she found it backkk!

School was fun for a day!

2006-10-10T13:15:00.000-07:00

Evening- Teri's house (celebrating mid autumm)

let the pictures paint the story to you. having only slept a mere 1.5 hrs, i have to go meet jon at bukit batok mrt. and we had this where is the head and tail of the train issue. but we still managed to get to teri's in the end. pretty fun. we met this bunch of kids playing with sparklers while carrying lanterns (check out our lame pictures). i swear this bunch of kids are mad. they are future arsonists or sth, if u look carefully there is one pic where you can see me fleein from the fire they created with *drumroll* sparklers. not only that, they seemed to have an endless supply of sparklers. in the end we ended up playing with THEIR candles and cycling and playing this really weird cardgame that involves people being kings, queens and god knows wad. All in all, a day well spent. :)

i know i will miss my class.

2006-10-10T13:12:00.000-07:00

when you walk out so easily, i am not going to let you walk in again.

what was that for?

2006-10-09T03:44:00.000-07:00

just read your blog post zhunian. yeahh it is hard to come to terms with it as well. we got the same results yah? i just want to say, prelims well. there is still a levels to look forward to. Go in for the kill for a levels. and i truly believe we can do it. dont think about it anymore and set your mind to doing this. it is now or never. whatever happens, you know you have already succeeded as a really good friend, and in life, that matters more than results. You were comforting me the other time, when it is my turn now, all i can say now is "perhaps it is God's plan for each and everyone of us." When everything fails, look to Him for strength and support that can tide you thru anythingg. i guess when i am saying this to you, i am sorta saying it to myself as well.
Thanks for everything yah? and you dunno how special you are to your friends. :)

2006-10-09T03:24:00.000-07:00

desmond, please start studyingg.

2006-10-09T03:07:00.000-07:00

i am thinking whether i should post pics of the last day in school. but then again there is farewell assembly on wed so there will be more pics to come. so look forward to a pic update. actually i am just bullshitting. cos i may not even have the time to uploadddd! being the lazy me. anywayy the haze has been quite bad, pple like bingyang with asthma pls take care. :)

have been studying till late at night, my bio clock is screweed. went for hc maf that was super boring.

had dinner at imperial treasure with suckling pig wadever suckling goose wadever. and i was dying from bloatedness. finally got down to writing my personal statement and it is bad. imagine a line that goes like "i looked at my father in awe", " designing a ship is like giving birth". haha wthh. let's see where it takes me.

i was talking to bel the other night. quite a meaningful conversation i guess. i was telling her, most people, when they get attached tend to have lesser time for their friends. don't deny it, it's true. so it is definitely better to only get attached when you are older. (OMG, i sound like my ah gong) when you are successful and are able to stand on two feet, (yes, kory i agree with you as well), with significant lesser friends because you are working and friendships tend to die out along the way. anyway the point is, i was telling bel how i wish all friendships can be a tad more easily maintained. i remember sayingg "windows open and close, that's just how it goes, and it takes two hands to clap, two equal forces from each side of the window to keep it open", yeah it works for friendshipss too? and i wish every other friendship can be like mine with bel, wy and tris. you know the "talk pretty little and yet be able to hang out like old friends after a long while of not meeting" that is what i truly desire of friends. but in reality that doesn't happen, does it? i swear maintaining friendships is getting so draining, i feel like just givingg out on some. esp when they are not worth it at all. i was right, you are not as innocent as you think you are. and stop whining pls.

for now, you!, leave me alone until after a levels eh. and everyone else too for that matter unless it concerns studies. i can be quite extreme sometimes, but i am determined to achieve my goals.

btw, i suddenly realise i love my class. :) thanks to zhihui and zhunian, who make class a lot better. and i regretted not appearing in school more often. :)

on a side note, jay chou's new album is really good. esp tui hou and xin yu.

2006-10-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

you know wad. these videos are fucking funny.
came back from the square's buffet. super full now. shan't talk much. except that i am starting on my mugging mode soon. NOW. yes now. yeap so i wont be updating much.

2006-09-28T12:12:00.000-07:00

Once in a while, indulge yourself by doing something really out of the world. Life is just like that, isn't it? Forget the scrutiny of fellow peers, your life ambitions blah blah blah for once and just go crazy. For once. In a LONG while. Times like these will keep you alive. :) because times like this remind you that there is so much more to life than life itself. forgive the pun. Once in a while i like to do something crazy as well. weird maybe in others' eyes, but energising nonetheless in mine.

So in your own 18 years of life, you have been a model student, gettingg desirable results and all. So what? Have you ever tried bungee jumpingg, skinny dipping, or even having rooftops bbq? Have you ever swam at the middle of the night, do something thrilling, something "not right"? not advocating breaking of law of wadever here, but doing correct stuff your whole life will not make it right. maybe left?

Small things in life keep you there.

I say, live your life to your heart's content. Laugh your loudest, cry your loudest, play your hardest and definitely study your hardest. now, i am def not contradicting myself. There is a time to play and there is a time to study. When it is time to play, PLAY HARD. When it is time to take a break, TAKE IT. an important person to me once said to me "Taking a break is so that you can take a longer journey afterwards." And when it is time to study, needless to say? Yes the time is now. One month's time and it is time to start the engine running again.

results for prelims? Spilt milk should not be cried over twice. Loserish in all sense of the word, but disappointment was too hard to bear. sorry mr lee. i know i can never be the perfect student, all prim and proper and attentive, but i do want to be able to write what i intended to in that card for you at the end of the year.

In any way, thanks to all of you.

i wonder if i will miss life in rjc. not much to be missed anyway since i never exactly appear in sch all the time, but rjc houses more than memories for me. Important friendships made over the years and definitely in kory's terms, "the HOLLYWOOD of high school". i will miss that.

For now, it is time to work hard.
i always believe in working towards goals. you see using the analogy of light at the end of the tunnel, if there is no light you wont even walk towards the end of the tunnel. the logic is simple, light is goals! it propels you forward because it is a mark you follow, something you keep by soo that you wont ever get lost in the tunnel of darkness. and yes. goals are impt in my life.

Long term goals are important but over detailed daily plans aren't exactly my cup of tea. i always believe in engaging in some risks day to day. :)

1) Get into an UK university. imperial, glasgow, sheffield, newcastle
2) Get my driving license
3) Take up another lang. i am deciding btwn french, spanish or sign lang

all of these to be achieved before school term starts again.

2006-09-26T13:42:00.000-07:00

(that's me in red. being a total retard, on the rooftop 18 floors high!see the ledge i am leaning on? over it is a nice fall down. HAHA. the city lights look so beautiful from here dun you think? cool idea of a bbq, we should do this more often.)

know it is not supposed to be sad, but this picture just remids me of this song. and yes the song is sad. but there is def nth sad abt the bbq. it was fun, and although the tradition of cake smashing is unbroken, smart me ended up as the cleanest, :) yeah i know, it is a feat.

Anthem of Our dying day- Story of the year

The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
Here I am, pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly, exactly what I need

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

For a second, I wish the tide
Will swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face, if you were here
Swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never, never have before

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying day

For a second, I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasped for air tonight

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day
Our dying day
Of our dying day

:) well.
and now, for the reason i am neglecting this blog is because:
1) prelims are over
2) DOTA
3) i have too many other things to do
4) i am lazy

er maybe i will blog abt the more significant stuff in my life soon, like my goals. that will make up a good post. LOTSA THINGS TO SAY ABT THEM. for now. PLAY HARD. :)

2006-09-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

trying to do a proper update on last day of sch, but blogger kept on screwing up. i cant upload all the pictures at one time. SO YAH. TILL THEN.

btw. we always have such interesting convos. :)

2006-09-16T10:41:00.000-07:00

i forgot to mention i went to watch john tucker must die with pong yesterday night. stupid cab driver drove us to cathay instead of cine so we had to take a midnight walk to cine. which is btw if you haven't realised, SUPER DUPER FAR.

BUT IT WAS WORTH IT.
cos the movie was super super good. ARGHHH JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE. :)
super funny. i had the best laugh in like a week, but considering the week we are referring to is prelim week, maybe it is not a good gauge as well. it just makes me chuckle whenever i got reminded of who said he is like john tucker. and who supergoat says is john. wth. super funny. *insider joke.but i think john tucker is darn sweet. :) Also, he reminds me of someone!!! his ROYal highness. :) so totally him.

ok wait this is totally random, but i just came back from a funeraal. and i so realise that i have no idea how to conduct myself during a funeral of someone i am not even remotely close to (or shld i say i dun even know in the first place.) am i supposed to be really sad? or am i supposed to be like okay? forget it. i braved through this lonely night eating peanuts and sweets without having to talk to any of the old people i dunno. now, that's a feat.

This is out of place and random as well, but chors as i promised the video of edward scissorhands, a must watch. and i will lend u the movie dun worry, i dun hate you! :) i love the snow falling scene especially.

2006-09-16T10:12:00.000-07:00

i am losing stamina.
arghhh i still have two papers left, come on!!!! cant stop now.
anywayy i heed someone's advice and went to watch shan hu hai on youtube. super super niceeee! damn sad. arghhh goes again to show my theory that every song has its own story is true. without mtvs it is what you made them out to be. wahhh i linked to qian li zhi wai mtv as well, super sad again. Why are all these songs so sad? we shld listen to happy songs! like promiscuous girl, just a lil bit, give it up to me. these non sensical storyless songs are those that make you happy.

my story for a song ended yesterday. :)

those three words are said too much, they don mean a thing.

Wonderwall- Oasis

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me (that saves me) 3X

There are many things that i would like to say to you, but i dunno how.

- the song that ended

2006-09-13T10:28:00.000-07:00

call me mad wadever, i just rewatched edward scissorhands again. like in the midst of my prelims. but it is a good movie. worth watchingg a dozen times at least. and i bet a thousand bucks that u will cry at least once in this dozen times. it is just so sad, i dunno how tim burton did it, and how he even got the idea from but it is definitely a work of a genius.

seriously, can you imagine the agony that comes with not being able to hold someone you love in your arms? in case you haven't realised from the title, edward is someone who has scissors as his hands. When the professor who created him died, he couldn't even hold him in his arms. he couldn't even touch him. He hurt the girl he loves unintentionally.

hold me.
i cant.

classic of the movie. who can understand his agony? and the pain he felt inside.
nevertheless it showcases johnny depp's wonderful acting skills.

it only started snowing when he is up there, and sometimes you can still catch me dancing in it.

edit/ if you are interested to watch the movie, i will consider lending it to you if i dun hate you. :)
and for now i shldd seriously get back to my math.
LONG LIVE THE PEIBEI:the mugger version. :)

2006-09-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

it has been long.

oh btw, hello cxy. wanted to do this after you told me u read my blog! HELLO!
and yes samsoon rocks.

btw i want to climb a mountain, preferably MOUNT HALLA.
mountain mountain mountain, then i will go swim in the lake or sth.

sian tmr got tuition shld i go ar? ARGHHHHH
I HATE PRELIMS.
anyway i am majorly screwed already so wadever la.

zhenxian zhenxian zhenxian zhenxian

how can i mix up allocative efficiency with productive efficiencyy. ARGHHHHH
BAH BAH BAHHHHH
anywayyy
live each day like it is ur last.
:)

2006-08-30T11:09:00.000-07:00

sorry supergoat! i am not sleepingg. i cant sleep.
my stomach hurts like crapp. drinking hot green tea to tryy to make it better.
sighhh
i am really scared for prelims.
i may look stressedd
but i am really not doing anything to downn play the stress factor.

you asked me why do i have to study so hard now.
for my dreams, my ambitions
uk, i want to be there next year.

i dont wanna knoww, if you're playing me, keep it on the low
cos my heart cant take it anymore
if you're creeping, pls dun let it show
oh baby, i don't wanna know.

thankss for all the concernn. peeps.
i am feeling much better compared to yesterdayy.
SIGHH. life's a bitch.

spent the past an hour or so looking thru some stuff. this is all kory's fault. he reminded me of it. i have no feelings whatsoever when i am looking thru them though. that is a good sign. :)

why can't i turn off the radio?

2006-08-30T01:49:00.000-07:00

from my lovely samsoon!

2006-08-29T22:11:00.000-07:00

i cant believe i fell sick. down with fever.
slept for almost half the day and ended up not being able to sleep at night
even though my head is throbbing my forehead is burningg.
i was so afraidd that it is sth biggerr and i wont be able to take prelims and if i have to take my common tests' results? GGXXED.
so yeahh now iam feeling a bit better.
hopefully i will be able to study later.

thanks for the person who accompanied me thru my sleepless night. THANKS A LOT.

2006-08-29T01:11:00.000-07:00

just came back from swimming :) in an attempt to shed off some fats (benn cai)
i like the serenity of the pool.
had a minor sun tan sessionn so i guess i shld be a few shades darker.

i like to immerse myself totally in the pool and look around.
enjoy the peace in the water
all blue and quiet.
and you can even hear yourself-every movement, every sound you make seem to be amplified
(and also look at how fat you are now)
hahaa.

btw i hate strawberries. just a random note.

i thinkk ultimately the only person you can rely on is yourself. and that doesn't make it altogether bad does it? next year, i will be truly alone, and i wonder what will become of me. maybee not much diff, the way i think about it.
so right noww, it is imperial, glasgow and sheffield
if all things fail, lausanne or new south wales.
imperial- psychology, glasgow- naval arch, minor psychology sheffield- psychology
lausanne- hospitality, new south wales- major in naval, minor psychology
dah dah. i made my choicess.
dad refused to let me go to america for he is fearful that i may turn up like steff. (stef is not that bad, hello?) but well, he is doing what he thinks he is the best for me.
one thing he said that made me stop trying to persuade him to let me go cornell was "i rather pay the extra money for UK's higher standard of living than to lose my daughter when she comes back."
there. says a lot eh.
that's my dad. in a lot of ways over protective but nevertheless cares for me wholeheartedly.
if i am you reading this, i will go give my dad a hug now.
it is hug your dad day today! :)

edit/ cant wait for 10 pm to come for my lovely samsoon. i am totally addicted to the show. never mind that you think i sound stupidd. HAHA maybe i am stupid!

2006-08-28T08:12:00.000-07:00

just watched my lovely samsoon again. HAHA
the cute guy finally fell in love with the fat girl.
so sweeet! :)

you know the show like my lovely samsoon gives people like me hope!
hidden storyline:
went for dinner with my family yesterday. jap. (i had jap in the afternoon as well. :( )and the first thing they said when i stepped in was how much weight i put on. etc etc. and i was devastated la! they called me fat! :( reminds me of this particular sec 2 incident jiann had with his family as well. haha

so wad does the story tell you?
the story tells me that i may be lucky like samsoon too! ok i am kidding.

ok jokes aside,
the jap dinner i had last night. freak, the kobe beef i had cost $220 per kg. i was like wtf? and it was really good. apparently to prepare kobe beef you have to give one week's notice and all. and my family decided to eat it every month! YUMMM. but i am going to get fatter. haha
when i get my first paycheck, i will bring karen there and we will have a good beef meal, competing to see who gets the last piece of beef ehh? :)

gp was okay. i din study for it but actually i kinda did. dun be confused. the topic i did was blogs. and i just so happened to be surfing blogs yesterday night. WELLL. and i have no double chin!

bel bought the my lovely samsoon vcds. ENVIOUSSSSSS! and green with jealousyy.

2006-08-26T12:51:00.000-07:00

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY. tristan and co made my day! i swear it is the first time i see you so happy and contented. love really make a difference eh. :) HAHA i am super happy for you! :)

so i went to study with wenyi at starbuckss. check out my new studious look. :)

STUDIOUS EH? stressed look. :)

it is raining beside me!!!

2006-08-25T08:31:00.000-07:00

halo! today is the last day of school.
and i am totally addicted to my lovely samsoon.
why must such a thing happen nearing the exams?
but the show is fucking funny. SERIOUSLY

and todayy. major photo whoring in class and all. pictures up next time.
i am an ass.

and thanks jiann, gerald and stallone for the unique err. wave in macs. :) haha

i am eating so much! sigh. :(

last day, no more skipping of school ever.
MUG MUG MUG MUG.

my dad knows me the best.
even i deceive the whole world, i wont be able to deceive you, dad!
that's what dads are for.
GLAD YOU ARE BACK!

2006-08-23T08:10:00.000-07:00

hahhahaha I LOVE THAT SHOW. my lovely samsoon or some shit. SUPER FUNNY. :)
anywayy, sth to share from the show.

one day, the heart and the body are having a conversation.
the body: when i am sick, i go to the doc. what about you? what do you do?
the heart: i cant go to anyone, so i have to rely on myself.

and that is why everyone has their own way with dealing with problems.

soapy and dramatic as it sounds, the show makes a lot of sense... :)

ps: record amt of days not been to school!

2006-08-22T10:16:00.000-07:00

in view of sch ending in likee three days (actually two cos i dun intend to go on thurs or fri), i decided to do a special post on school. for memory's sake, not that i will particularly miss it though. the people perhaps, but definitely not the constant draining of stupidd elasticity and shit.

this was taken in maths lect by koon i think. in a lot of ways this picture reminds me of school. two years passed pretty quickly

that is rama "invading" MY chair. my tiger chair. ok dun contradict me, it is a tiger skin chair!and he is even holding on to my soft toy!
and this is zhihui myy stupid snail in class, who can be quite sweet sometimess.

guess who is the fuzzy guy in the picture! haha. taken in maths lect. can see we are so not listening during maths lect!how can i forget my fave pple in sch? ser, bel, mel.

my classmates. zhunian, jac, cheryl, zhernstupid zhihui again.

my class guyss.

who are really not bad people. and are pretty funny. just look at how gay haisong is :) haha.

edit/ just ate freaking a lot again. sigh and des just called to ask me to study with him tmr. hope he is FINALLy going to study. i need some coffee! study study. shld i go to sch tmr?

2006-08-22T10:06:00.000-07:00

Mixtape- Butch Walker

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you.
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know...

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than
that, about me and you..

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel
Like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I
Feel, you don't know..

'Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain't so sad
I only wish that there was more than
That, about me and you..

(bridge)
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me your friend
And I'm not the same person from back in the day
In the back of the class that you thought was gay
No I can't find the words 'cause I lost them the minute
They fell out my mouth and it's love and I'm in it
So give me your lips and just let me kiss 'em
And let's get messed up and listen to probably..

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than
That, about me and you

everyone loves this songg, fat aka benn cai likes it, pong likes it, even double chin does. and yes double chin stop denying you have a double chin! :) and of course i like it as well. and this is the first time i like a songg because i just like it, and not the usual where the song lyrics means sth. and even all the sad songs ain't so sad. that's the only line i can relate to right now. cos life cannot be better than now. :)
studying is such a hmmm. time consuming activity that it sucks up your whole life. :)

2006-08-21T11:17:00.000-07:00

i am so over being blue :)
so i am red now.
and gay!

why are you so pretty?

nono, i am not les, don't worry.

2006-08-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

soo. life's great and i'm lovin it.
it feels great to delete my * group in msn, just as well, since it never exists in the first place.
the first name is a mistake, the second is a regret.
regret no moree.
:)
it really feels great.

life's great. :)
even school seems a little more fun.
looking forward to fri, to have our little fun.

my dad is comming back!!!

i see you see me he sees me i see her you see her he sees him.
SUPERFICIAL PEOPLE!!!! :))))))

:D study folkss.

2006-08-19T10:43:00.000-07:00

After all the ranting on how i hate school and all, i am thinking right now, rjc may not be as bad as i thought it was. True, everyone is mugging like mad now, and there seems to be thiss coldness from the school compound itself. but other than that, i believe rjc houses the widest rangee of people of all other jcs. we may not have as many hot pple as ac (obviously we do have hot people, just not as much), but we have lots more other kinds of people. and for that, i guess, i am grateful to be in rjc.

MICHAEL WONG IS TEACHING IN HCJC NOW. i think i am going to contradict myself now. haha. just kiddingg.
i am just soo idiotic at times. :)
cheers. and happy studying folksss.

p.s: i haven been to sch for classes for likee 3 dayss. :)

2006-08-17T06:44:00.000-07:00

today is my slack day. went to swim followed by click. it is one good show. made me cry really badly. now i understand chor's strong recommendation for it. i am not good with words but i shall try to phrase it nicely in words. "Family... comes first." since i was 13 maybe 12 plus, i have placed my priority wrongly, it was always "anything for friends, anything." after this movie. i really din expect it to have such a huge impact on me. my dad is currently overseas, the thought of there may be a slight chance that sth may happen to him during this journey, the amount of troubles weighing on his mind, i dunno. the thought just made me sick altogether. I have done things wrongly for freaking eighteen years, it is time to put things right. Family, comes first.

"dad, i love you."

"forever and ever, babe."
someone once said that to me before, i foolishly believed, but well. now i know. and i am saying it to you now, dad, forever and ever, i will love you.
here's to us, dad.
everything u did, i guess u did it for my benefit. but i always refuse to see it. now, i do.
i still recall how u taught me how to cycle in the past.
the remote control. i need it to rewind it to those times.
now. i can only say , come back quickly.

dad i love you.
to us.

2006-08-16T12:08:00.000-07:00

i think it is quite sad when you realise the person you knew before is not the one you know now. the better you know a person, the more obviouss the flaws become. you get what i mean? and for that, i always believe that it is not worth it to get too close to too many people. perhaps just the few who matter.

and thanks bel for helping us order birks. THEY ARRIVED. :) and i love them a lot to the extent that i will walk to my shoee cabinet to try them on without meaning to. :)

STUDY HARD.

2006-08-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

memoriess.
i will back you up.

anytime.

hmm just read wenyi's blog and she beat me to this post. wanted to dedicate a song to her long ago but i am super lazy. as usual lazy me took over. for people who matter, there is a songg in my music library that usually makes me think of the particular person when i listen to it. for wenyi, this is the songg.

I'll Be There For You - The Rembrandts

So, no one told you life was going to be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year.
But....

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight.
You've burned your breakfast, so far, things are going great.
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these.
But she didn't tell you when the world
has brought you down to your knees,
that,

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me.
Seems you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me.
Someone to face the day will, make it through the rest with,
someone I'll always laugh with.
Even at my worst, I'm best with you. Yeah!

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you

'Cause you're there for me too

thanks for everything pal. you said i helped you a lot. but you have no idea how much you helped me as well. one of the few who truly matter. the past is the past. yeapp. both of us shld learn how to live out of it. :) here's to many more years of friendship, best friend.

2006-08-12T22:43:00.000-07:00

You know who we're talking about — the champion consoler, the person you can always count on, the person who knows how to clean up even after the biggest emotional superspill of your life. This friend gives you a one-on-one rush like no other. This confidante for all seasons can probably even read your mind just a little. Or don't you remember the last time they finished a sentence for you?Lucky for you, your supportive sidekick can probably guess what your next dreams will be before you even do. It must be nice to know you have a tireless supporter and coach in your midst, someone you can tell anything to who always has your best interests in mind and a smile to cheer you up. How sweet!

tris eh. anytimee. :)

had fun watching fireworks with gerald and friends yesterday. haha post pictures later, when i feel like it. and noww, i really ought to start studyingg. kinda freaked out to see jiann online at 4!! cos he cant finish studying what he intended to. SCARY. and he was freaking me out with his non-jiann tactics. tsk tsk.
MUGG like you are being paid for. (sounds familiar?)

2006-08-11T00:16:00.000-07:00

Feels Like Rain- Motion City Soundtrack

And we feel like rain,
When the words all sound the same,
In the lifeless corners of this empty frame.
Though we feel let down
By the same old autumn breathing.
Winters curse is just around the bend.
With our hands all tied,
To the blades of their design.
We are armed and ready to commit this crime.

We love that game but we never play,
'Cause we will lose and we want to stay,
The way we are; the way we've been for far too long.

From the falsest smile,
To the fear of death is why,
The pain reminds us that we're still alive.
With our hopes on hold,
And our lack of interests exposed.
All hands damage our determined eyes,
But the lines are drawn,
and the red begins to creep,
It's way from boredom toward apathy.

We love that game but we never play,
'Cause we will lose and we want to stay,
The way we are; the way we've been for far too long.

We love that game but we never play,
'Cause we will lose and we want to stay,
The way we are; the way we've been for far too long.

Say something.
Finally we're alone.
Alright is there anyone out there at all?

Say something, finally we're alone.
How about a phone call now?

We love that game but we never play,
'Cause we will lose and we want to stay,
The way we are; the way we've been for far too long.

We love that game but we never play,
'Cause we will lose and we want to stay,
The way we are; the way we've been for far too long.

We love that game but we never play,
'Cause we will lose and we want to stay,
The way we are.

And we feel like rain,
When the words all sound the same;
As the curtain closes on another day.

2006-08-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

i said i will post the lyricss of tears. here it is. :)
Tears- xjapan

doko ni yukebaii anata to hanarete
ima wa sugisatta toki ni toi kakete
nagasugita yoru ni tobidachi wo yume mita
ikoku no sora mitsumete
kodoku wo dakishimete
nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no toiki wo kanjite

* Dry your tears with love
Loneliness, your silent whisper
fills a river of tears through the night
Memory, you never let me cry
and you, you never said good-bye

Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But I never thought
you'd trade your soul to the fates,
never thought you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart

nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi wo aoi bara ni kaete

edit/ there wonderful isn't it? the first jap paragraph is for you, take it as a sealed letter between us- one only we know. and for that, it will end our chapter, and start a new chapt for me and another one for you. might as well. never a fan of jap songs though but i guess i will like this song for months to come. you once told me a fairytale, there was a princess, yes no prince. now i understand why. like i said, you just made my choices easier to make. might as well. never wanted to now anywayy. wrong right from the start. special people are hard to come by, but without them, i will manage still.

and yes right now i can fully focus on the tasks at hand. :) i know the ending to the fairytale. it is a happy endingg. as long as you are contented. nth beats contentment.

2006-08-10T07:47:00.000-07:00

i dunno where all that rage came from, but now that it had all subsided,
i guess it was pretty stupid and childish on my part.
that i will admit is my fault.

just end this freaking issue. i dun ever want to talk abt it again. esp when it concerns this non-existent stranger in my life.
and wadever u all think abt me, i dun care. seriously. go ahead stab me right at the back, the front anywhere, i wont even wince.
because simply, i don't care.

2006-08-10T00:13:00.000-07:00

go ahead, take whoever's stand you want.
because truthfully i am okay with u taking his stand.
cos i am perfectly fine fighting my own battle myself.
and i am used to it
i dun need anyone there for me.
not sacarsm or anything even close to that,
i am just okay with it.
and i mean it.

take words the way they are, dun read too deep into them esp when they come from a good friend, or so she will like to think of herself as one.

edit/ i am in the library. and i managed to get hold of both soft toyss. the time is coming, can u hear it beckon? you know the thing withh trying to tell someone sth in one's blog entries. i have the same sentiments, mel.

2006-08-09T12:31:00.000-07:00

is this what you call retribution?
i am feelin' it already.

just stop it and buzz off from my life.

2006-08-09T00:16:00.000-07:00

:) i just found malt candy in my bag. malt candy makes me happy :)

MALT CANDYYY!

2006-08-08T22:39:00.000-07:00

birthday girl :)

randomm again. i wonder why are we so random?
mel and wy

some dumb shott..

the food is mother good i tell u. OH MAN. esp the beef. FINGER LICKING GOOD :)

mel had green tea ice cream fed to her mouth, i had too, but not the birthday girl. HA. (explains the sad face)

three of us again.

2006-08-08T22:11:00.000-07:00

tuition was at 1030 but i just woke up at 12. :( HA. oops. anyway yesterday's study session was lousyy. i ended up going to holland v to meet daniel after less than 3 hrs of mugging. BUT, holland v was great, thanks to daniel, I KNOW ALL ABOUT THE NICE DELICIOUS BEEF NOODLES THERE NOW. super super yummmy. maybee we can all go there one dayy. ohhh. and walking around holland v looking for weirdo superr cute presents at party city and thiss small little abeit the broken down shop. I BOUGHT A PIRATE HAT. oh man i just had to get it. maybe i will use it for prom maybe not. arghh. judging by the number of disapprovals i get when i told people abt my plans to go as a pirate, i may just buckle under peer pressure and not be a pirate.
peibei: ehh i think i going as a pirate for prom
jiann: ehhh(to kory) are we sitting with her ar?
peibei: no laa
jiann: wah heng ar.
kory: u siao already!

and then it was off to party city where i got super cute sweet ands a nightmare before christmas lip gloss. arghh anyone who knows me will know that is my fave cartoon char. after the nice dinner at this vietnamese place called phoa hoa or sthh, we ate waffles! HALF PRICE ON TUESDAY! :)

msn yesterday was hilarious. ME AND FATS(benn) are best partners in crime. POOR WEINIANN and PONG. haha. sorry we are really actually the hostss of "who is the smarter one". aren't we, cai? so benn, why u reject me ar? :)

kinda addicted to this song by x-japan. tearss. will post the lyrics here some other timee. and i just read my diaryy. quite a funny read because i cant help laughing at the way i was the other timeee.

a packet of kissabless. :)

2006-08-07T11:25:00.000-07:00

somehow i cant help but miss my favourite smeanie smonster.

2006-08-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

scandalouss.

birthday kisses for the birthday girl. some rather weird posingss. randomm

i cant believe we played with tissue paper. not my idea.

CANDIDDD

three of us! one in clubbing wear, prom dress, in normal dining clothes(which is me) dinner at sun was good. but wad was better wad the company. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENYIII. anywya this is part one, there is still the food part. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF UPLOADING PICTURESS. so wait. haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

2006-08-06T08:41:00.000-07:00

dammit, she's spicy. who is?

2006-08-06T08:21:00.000-07:00

just read wy's entry on her birthday. you are welcome man, anytime. :) at least i made it at 00:00 :) hhaa. i will upload the pics. i hope.

haha i am glad he messaged you.

at least he did. the person u were mentioning in ur blog, she/he sounds really sad eh. to not be able to even contact, see or treat the person he/she likes as a normal friend. HA. but that is life.

2006-08-05T23:35:00.000-07:00

so i was at the interhouse polo cup. MT FTW. but we got second. hmm considering that we were playing one down, it was not bad. actually we were playing two down in the first 5 mins, no thanks to jiann, who just camee (look at the picture above)
bryoonn looks quite good eh
in the heat of the battle, with jiann's marvelllous save

MOOR'S six member team -->FATS HAD A CRAMP! must be too fat!

prize ceremonyy
marcus's house won! but i got a trophyy as well. :) i think moor did great. GO MOOR!

2006-08-05T23:06:00.000-07:00

a day in town ended like that...

shopping queen, food of crabss, and chilli crab kingss! the things we are up to...

2006-08-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

prelims and a levels are ruining my life. cant go for anything, cant find time for anything, cant be hyped up over anything anymoree. i have evolved into a bookwormm. :( but i am still a slacking bookworm la. even sadder :( I MUST STUDY I MUST STUDYYY! shit come on peibei! life's not only about fun!

the thing abt rjc is that half the pple are alreadyy on the way to finishing studying. whaoo.

i just watched the mtv of forever love by wang lee hom. he passed the bride sth that will trigger off memories of them before. i dunno what he is trying to do. make her remember?

2006-08-03T06:14:00.000-07:00

looks good eh? i miss thiss. shui liu shan thing that used to be available beside lido. it closed down! anyone who will get me thiss?

2006-08-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

small bro snake: ehh are we poisonous snakes?
big bro snake: why do you ask?
small bro snake: cos i just bit my tongue.

HAHAHA

ok actuallyy i have been wanting to upload the polo cupp pictures. but as usual lazy me took over. be patient. wait will be over..

p.s love vs hatred. u choose.

2006-08-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

arghhh.
you have this ability. to fluctuate my mood.

2006-08-02T07:47:00.000-07:00

what started off as a screwy day turned out really fine. thanks for the white slip. i think u just made me remember you for my whole life.
ohh. went to the lib to mug.
random sessionn of "RAMA!, BENJY!" haha
FATSS
PONG
and of course, randomm conversations of the two legendary soft toys in the lib. actually they are all mine, together with the tiger skins chairs (don't contradict me.) haha no mouth how to talk?
scoldings from fats for wasting his time :( haha
wishing tree.
a getting-a-drink trip turning out to be a up-to-mischief trip! haha GUESS WAD WE DID! :)
only we know dun we. as long as WE WIN!
and howw i can get to my house with just two steps. IT IS A SECRETT.
rama's secret obsession with himself in benjy's phone
soggy ban mee.
andd the sharing of chopsticks. THREE PPLE.
sch is not that bad after all.
only you make it bad. yes u camel!

2006-08-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

once i decided on sth, i will never turn back. same goes to this promise i made to myself. promises are not meant to be broken. you dont have to agree, that is just one of my principles in life. if u consider this lying to myself, i am. so what? my choice.

actually, i'd rather u block me or sth, cos i cant bear to.

here without you, baby
but you're still with me in my dreams.
and tonight, it's only you and me.

2006-07-31T07:11:00.000-07:00

i was blocking the aisle in the bus when i was helping this old woman carry her huge truckload of things out of her seat, so i made this nurse miss her stopp. i felt bad and i apologised, and she was okay about it, she even gave me a bright smile. it really made my dayy. :)

so there is sth with that pic that constantly makes me smile. HA :)
today was a pretty good day.

edit/ i am playing davy jones on repeat. i have the whole song now. THANKS to biscuit goat for helping mee. and if anyone wants the song, ask me for it. and if i like you enough i will send it to you. :) hehe

2006-07-30T10:16:00.000-07:00

hold me
i cant.

classic. only true johnny depp fans will know where these lines come from. HA. depp is easily the best actor in the world. second to none.

2006-07-30T06:03:00.000-07:00

somehow i am thinking, i am not worth you being so nice to me.
:(

2006-07-29T21:47:00.000-07:00

yesterday was weinian's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEINIAN! :) nicest guy in the world! (sorry, i could only find this photo! haha)

and i went to catch potc again! it was good except that the second time is always not as exciting as the first i guess. i have this newfound liking for will turner's dad. dun ask me why. he is super nicee to his son! and i kinda like davy jones as well. the music from his musical box, you know the one that made him fall back to sleep when turner was trying to get the key, how do i put it, there is just thiss sadness that comes with listening to it. (btw, the track is called "davy jones" well, guess it ties in with his sad love storyy. No matter how brave or strong someone appears on the outside, there is always a breaking point. just look at davy jones.

edit/ if ya interested to listen to it, go here. http://disney.go.com/disneyrecords/soundtracks/pirates2/index.html
and click on davy jones! it is only part of the whole song thoughh.

2006-07-28T22:44:00.000-07:00

i am super Lazy. spelt with a CAPITAL L.

2006-07-28T08:01:00.000-07:00

i want to go as a pirate for prom. it is quite romantic wad. :)

anywayy today i was in the bus and i saw kids playing weird relay games on the field. the kind when u have to like do squats then run 10m then skip 10 times, jump into the runny sack and hop for god knows how long. HAHA. those were the times. i will give anything to be able to do that again. primaryy school days huh.

oh and i tot of this joke i really like!
have u all watched shark tale?

big shark (afterr being injured of sth) : hey, can u hold me?
small shark: but why?
big shark: i am cold

small shark: BUT WE ARE COLD-BLOODED!!!

haha this is my fave joke of all time. anddd this is the joke that irritated the hell outta the bballers for a period of time! HA.

2006-07-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

The night the lights went out in NYC- The ataris

The lights are out in the city tonight
So close your eyes, gaze up at the heavens
And see if you can point me out

If I could have one wish tonight
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you

We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have

So many paths that we can take
To bring us to our destiny
Gaze up at the heavens
And see if you can point me out

If I could have one wish tonight
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you

We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have

Be careful what you wish for
These stars are fading out.

edit/ a beautiful song. if you have a wishh tonight, what will it be? grades? HAHA. superficial beings we are. i wish for world peace. HAHA. jking. hmm i just wish everyone to be happy and contented with their own livess! :)

2006-07-27T09:39:00.000-07:00

oh man!! my large black toe nail is dropping!
kind souls pls do not step on it!

i feel like pulling it out! HAAHA

2006-07-27T08:07:00.000-07:00

met up with cynthia after so long. finally managed to catch up with my fave "shuai ge" after so long. HAHA and boy, do i miss you!

i am a bum!
a big fat lazyy fat big bum!

i don't want to make any choices. not at this time at least.

now it is backk to my chocolates and cheese! and sadly workk.
i am hardlyyy any fun now, am i?

2006-07-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

even the strongest person needs to rely on someone as well. where is the limit?

if only i have a brother.

2006-07-22T00:48:00.000-07:00

what a funny thing to say?
even if u read my blog a thousand times, notice the lack of archives btw (which means you will never be able to read my whole blog), you still wont know me enough to say that you know me inside out. what a joke.
and in any case, who i am is reallyy only my business.

2006-07-21T22:28:00.000-07:00

xy and wy made me sound like a very scaryyy person. haha. it is seriously not hard.
oh anyway i finally watched potc after making my classmates watch with me.
it was good! (why all the negative comments?) and ZHIHUI, i am going to kill you for making me stay for at least 15 mins for a STUPID RIDICULOUS 3 secs clippp!
Many people exclaimed that they cant decide btwn depp and bloom after the movie, but i decided long ago. DEPP. i lovee him since his edward scissorhands days. watched everymovie of his, and of course potc will be no exception (YAY!) he might be gay wadever, cowardly and all in potc but all of these only go to show wad an exceptional actor he is.

second series of prawn jokes.

there once lived a prawn. This prawn was walking past a building when a fridge fell at the spot he was at a second ago. he then proceded to cross a road and was nearly knocked down by a car. Another prawn saw what happened and exclaimed "....."

guess the .....

HAHA.
HENG SIA! (prawn)

2006-07-20T08:12:00.000-07:00

today marks the day i first broke the chain of returning home straight after school.
it is time for a happy post :)
firstly, i saw a ghost today in the train.

some major freaky woman (you know the typical korean long hair ghost?) came up to me from nowhere and asked me how to get to tiong bahru. well i told her. then she disappeared just like that. withoutany sound when i turned around. and i was freaked out. seriously

ok i am kidding. she kinda hmm floated away (ok no, hmm walked at a fast rate)

haha. did i scare you? bet YES!
so anywayyy i am going to tell you sth really funnyy, so noww. use put both ur index fingers into your mouth and pull your mouth apart into a smile! :) this is some lame shit.

(adapted from bel and pach's version)
there lives a prawn in the sea who really knows his stuff (aka history, lit and all that shit)
so one day, another prawn swims (do they swim or glide?) past and said sth.

wad did he say?

scroll down for answer.

haha. are you sure you want to know?

CHEEM SIA!(prawn in chinese)

ok nowww. dun hit me when you see me in school.

2006-07-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

you are but a fleeting moment.

edit/: i just read some sch junior's blog, i cant link him because firstly i doubt he knows me, secondly i doubt he knows i read his blog, better not risk it. he had this poem on his blog that was like whao. super goodd. the kind who will make you sit up and read it again. yupp.

2006-07-19T06:28:00.000-07:00

I caught fire (in your eyes) - The Used

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Here your voice again
Can we dim the sun..
And wonder where we've been.

Maybe you and me so..
Kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin.

I'm Melting.. I'm Melting

(Chorus)
In your eyes..
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I’m melting
In your eyes..

Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me, lay with me now.

Never caught my breath
Every second I’m without you, I’m a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing?
Learning how to love
I'm melting, I'm melting

(Chorus)
Stay with me, lay with me now.
You can stay and watch me fall
And of course I’ll ask for...
(Background Scream) Help......

Just stay with me now
We can take our pants off, stay in bed
Just make love, that's all
Just stay with me now

I'm melting, I'm melting

Stay with me, lay with me
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
I'm melting in your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes

2006-07-19T06:19:00.000-07:00

wad the hell was i thinking? i must be going crazy from all that craziness before.
sorry for even having the intention.
i am such a bad person i dun deserve anything from you.
at least now it is okay.
you and me.
favourite accident, perhaps.

i must be the only loser who haven't watched potc. argh. and i cant find anyone to watch it with me, becausee everyone has watched it! bahhh.
bah bah bah.
i thinnk i am handicapped.
by what?
that's for me to know.

just hadd dinner with my dad for like two weeks consec. never before i tell you. i am evolving into this gigantic "put a name here" who i cant recognise myself. SPIRAL SPIRAL SPIRALLING.
argh, even "accidentally in love" cant crack me up as well as before.

on a sidenote, i love life. RIGHT.

2006-07-18T09:00:00.000-07:00

this is for you, my favourite canoeist.

Voor u zult opnieuw laten zitten en zult de wereld, ik aandurven geloof dat u de kracht hebt om zo te doen. wees dapper

2006-07-18T08:50:00.000-07:00

such a happy picture don't you thinkk. and sijian i wont forgive you for telling me potc is some shitt other stupid movie which was a blockbuster in america. even made up some stupid movie namee. THANKSS. btw, in case u haven realised, the m &m is from potc, hence the co relation. i shan't talk anymore, esp since everyone is already mugging their asses off.

2006-07-18T08:46:00.000-07:00

you know wad, you are a challenge. and i am game for it.
we will see who triumphs in the end, will we?
for now, just happy birthday.

you dont have to be serious to play it well.

2006-07-16T12:03:00.000-07:00

there is this man in the tunnel near buona vista mrt who brightens up my life every time i walk past him. the way he smiles so brightly when you drop him some change. i guess that smile is enough to light you up for the whole day. he showed how grateful he is with that one smile, sincere and flawless. if only things are as simple, life will be much better. THE SMILE WILL STAY. SMILE AT YOUR FRIENDS TODAY!

2006-07-16T11:36:00.000-07:00

Eu ainda amo-o. nenhuma questão o que você disse, o que você fez, nenhuma questão o que, eu ainda farei ainda que você não faz. mais.

if there's one good thing that this 16 yr old boy taught me, it must be the love for languages. ur ego is really too freaking huge.

2006-07-16T08:01:00.000-07:00

it is mel's birthdayy! cake is baked by our very own bel
ok. u know wad. i was supposed to take her blowing the candles but i was too slow.

the four of us- breakfast crew and birthday girl
and again...

happy birthday mel! you are finally 18! gone will be ur childish wayss. HAHAHA :) sryy, i couldn't help but say that!

2006-07-15T23:18:00.000-07:00

<--ame and sheryl. i think ame just molested sheryl.

jiaolian wrestling with ame! haha

mel constantly bullying esther the whole night.

some get together picture.

Qian Xi YOuth TEAMM! :)

come to think of it, i will really miss these pple. esp those vjc team mates, since i wont see them that often. and of course jiao liann. haha. it has been a fun night. qian xi dinner. hahah qian xi zi ye and the constant singing of oldies. WHAOO

2006-07-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh.
You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum.

Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Will Die at Age 52

Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle
Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits.

What Age Will You Die?

2006-07-15T22:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday night was bad. why did i?
one wrong thing led to another.
wrong phone call, wrong spiting tactic, wrong wrong wrongg.
i think i made a fool out of myself
this reminds me of another incident 3 years ago
FUCK.
i am going crazy.

face the music. yeapp just that wad iheard on the phone wasn't music.
it is scary that i remember
things i dun want to remember.

I am so sorry, mel. i think i kinda lost it.
it was a bad night, with chasing, overcooked chicken wings or undercookded, flying marshmellows, lots of alcohol, swings, songs and stupid phone call.

tell me wad i heard wasn't true.

2006-07-13T06:34:00.000-07:00

it is amazing how slow i catch up with popular songs like this. i guess it is just the whole "over rated" thing that pushes me away.

Accidentally In Love - Counting Cows

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love,oh

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Because everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming
All this love melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love... I'm in love

edit/ my head hurts like crap. for three whole weeks. sian. must be the effects of school.

2006-07-12T06:25:00.000-07:00

Slacker Kid

High school was a place you showed up occasionally, but you didn't really leave a mark.

You hated rules, authority, and structure. In fact, you still do.

Who Were You In High School?

it is not true! i love rules!

You Are 28% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

hahah i am not abnormalll!

2006-07-12T05:52:00.000-07:00

so the theme for this yr's prom is midnight in manhattan.
now. let me think abt this theme. wad does it mean?
to say the truth, i dunno wad i can go dressed as.
hmmm
i tell u the truth the first thing that came to my mind is werewolf. AHHA
midnight. manhattan, you get the picture.

but after thinking abt it, i decided i gonna go dressed as a MEATBALL!
ok pple who haven't been to nydc will not understand this insider joke.
so i will go as a meatball and eat up everyone INCLUDING manhattan.

hey wait. maybe i wont go as a meatball. seems as if ben cai (fats) will be a better person to be a meatball! haha 30 kg MY ASSS. :)

shitt. i really sound like a kid. HAHA.

school is so boring. outta my mind boring. and after that talk with mel yesterday (the two sian pple talk), i kinda got some stuff out of me. i gotta start life straight and stop thinking abt it because it is stupid!

during a short phone conversation with chors in the hospital today, he reminded me that i have only 60 days to prelims. and it kinda freaked me out. OH i forgot to mention that i passed phy! HAHA. i dun have to see you mr hodge! :) i won u handsdown at hide and seek. 60 days. so i guess i willl take 5 days to make myself sit down at my table, 5 days to write a time table (that i wont follow), 10 days for pple's birthdays, 20 days to plan for these pple birthdays, 10 days to slack, rest and do other stuff and the final 10 days, well for revision! haha

i am efficcient. yah right. as you can see, i am deeply short of time. so i decideddd. i gonna stop doing other stupid stuff and jsut study. FULL STOP. period. (while i am saying this, i am thinking hello. i just waste 5 mins typing this useless shit) i gonna put off all the things i want to do till after a leveelsss.
things like: dotaaaaaaaa, sun tan and many more to come

btw, i passed phy! :) cheeerrs.
i wonder how longi can keep up with this "going home straight after school unless there are important stuff" which means no loithering around, no slacking, no eating for the sake of eating. oh man i amm becoming like kory. haha

and keep exercising. it is all work and exercises these 60 days. you know wad, if u are reading this, i think i just wasted 5 mins of ur precious dunno how many minss in the polo blog. WAHAH.

p.s i still hate school

2006-07-10T10:15:00.000-07:00

to tris: heyy. i just want to say i am really glad for u. finally after so long. haha. we have been thru so much together. and yet i cant even find a freaking recent pic of us together. haha this is the best i could find. well. i really really hope this time it will work out. GOOD LUCK PAL :)

2006-07-10T09:56:00.000-07:00

yes great game, good goal there against iran! good try against germany as well. the one who almost went in. YOU ROCK.
YOU STILL ROCK.
scolari is one of my idols this world cup. haha i llike this picture cos he is carrying two balls. hahah ok hahha he is cute when he smiles. :)
PRO midfielder. 20 deco! go DECO
ok dun luff. but i must confess. this is my wallpaper. shuddup jian! stop laughing and calling me an oldephile! haha. but i like him. he is good! come on, he led portugal to the last four. and even though deco is inside, well it is considered quite a feat, isnt it. HE IS GOOD.and i am so gladddd he is staying in portugal. I LOVE SCOLARI.

2006-07-10T07:22:00.000-07:00

siann i hate school.

dear mr kamel,

if you happened to read this, can u pls excuse me from school?
THANKS

your student,
peibei

2006-07-09T03:03:00.000-07:00

i am sick of being taken for granted.

2006-07-09T02:46:00.000-07:00

i hate school. and other things bigger than life in school as well.

2006-07-09T02:43:00.000-07:00

portugal got 4th. i lost freaking a lot. someone is pissing me off. france italy- 3 wins 2 wins respectively, with 2 draws. someone is still pissing me off. !!!
i wonder what u are trying to do. maybe i am wrong all along.

2006-07-05T14:15:00.000-07:00

wad a boring matchhh. france won guess wad on penalty. i cant say they totally din deserve the win but i must say portugal was the better team. that was obvious. deco deco deco, where were u? sighhh. there goes my dream finale- italy against portugal. now i dunno who to support. i think i willl go for italy. sigh. SAD. SAD. DECOOO!

anyway i have sth to say abt girls watching soccer. not ALL girls watch soccer for cute guys you know. though i know some who do, ok quite a lot ( for these pple, i reserve my comments), there are MANY girls who love the game, LOVE THE THRILL OF THE GAME. seriously, stop sterotyping. joga bonito

3rd 4th will be a must watch. portugal go whack some german's asses. i just hate them. though france is the one who kicked my faves out but i seem to hate germany more. i guess i just dun quite agree with their supporters. in fact i dun think they deserve to be in top 4. but wouldn't it be a shame for them if they din, for they are the host country? haha. welll. I CURSE I CURSE. ballack, klose, poldoski.

Go deco!
finals wont be interesting anymore. 3rd and 4th match seem like a good match.

the feeling of being misunderstood. sterotypes. ARGH.
history has its way of finding itself into scorelines this time round. i din bet today. because i knew that if i wanteed to win, i must bet on france. but i wont. i cant kinda "betray" portugal. at least holding on to some hope that perhaps they may miraculously win. sigh. figo.

watching zidane play is really a joy in itself anyway. zizou!
france or italy. let me mug my scores first.
i really hate germany. a distinct dislike. and i cant seem to be able to pinpoint the source of this hatred.

2006-07-05T11:40:00.000-07:00

BATMANNN!! my class guys cut this and put it on the ohp! sorry i know it is the superman fever. so out! haha but it brings back memories.
guess whose face is this. i mean the big blob of mass! yes u are right. that is koryyy unmasked. (note: if u are a regular of polo blog, kory always uses ru lai sheng zhang to ward off photographers, now we know the reason why!) :) haha jking.

guess who this is. make a million guesses. if u guess correctly, i will SAY. to _ _ _ _ _ _ haha sry sry i cant help it, i have to post this pic!